I am not, or have ever been someone who is able to work a job I don't love with my whole heart. I somehow hold no tolerance for that. Why do I domme, yet why is it also that I stay strictly on the end of the BDSM spectrum that is minimally sexual? I do recognise that at the end of the day it still falls under the umbrella of sex work, so it's not because I look down on those who openly hawk sex as their trade such as sugar babies, escorts and the like. I respect them a lot, it's not easy!
It's simply because sex does not interest me.
Every organism that has evolved from the primordial soup successfully did because of their innate nature to reproduce. Up till today even as the complex beings we have become, this is still intrinsic in our physiology.
I want to know the path of maladaption instead-- I want to know why sucking on toes gives one a hard on, why being chained up, insulted and degraded nourish others. I want to know all that's twisted and strange and beautiful. Whether it's trauma, restoring an inner equilibrim of balance by relinquishing control, developmental association or whatever it may be, at the heart of it I simply seek to understand.
When someone has braved societal prejudice, internalised judgment and they are nothing but raw and vulnerable, in that very moment I am in that same place within myself, and yeah, although I may be the domme-- brilliantly poised and divine while you are naked kneeling beneath me, we are one. And I have only love to give, in that rare moment of shared authenticity.
I could be caning the shit out of you, calling you all kinds of profanities but those are simply mediums of unorthodox intimacy. I appreciate that you are so courageous especially in our closed-up society, to embrace this about yourself and even go a step further to trust me in terms of execution.
I am Roxy Ruthless because I'm generally unfazed by many things having lived a pretty extreme life. Contrary to what most may believe, I am not a sadist-- I am simply able to travel to your extremes without flinching because I'm unfettered by your pain. My nonchalance allows me to hold a lot of space. That, and I understand that it's through this carthartic pain where you heal. Every stroke is of tenderness.
And I am also Ruthless in my pursuit of making this world one at least a little more accepting.
Thank you for showing me YOU.
All my love, Queen Roxy Ruthless
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